I'm 22 now..

Time flies so fast , that without notice I'm 22 already right now.. 

22years old on 22nd November ..

It does mean something to me..

In the moment I wake up, I'm listening to the song happy birthday to myself by Wendy Lan, does it sound sorry? 

Last night I'm keep awake and thinking something that won't ever happening , at least for this moment for sure :D 

This year wishes that I just hope for one thing ...

This is the sunrise taken by me on my 22nd year of my life, is it good?

If it's not, sorry for my poor skill and camera then...

I feel so confused, sad and bad now..

I want to get out from this situation, eventhough many of my friends already ask me to give up..

But I'm still nowhere near giving up..

While hope can let us feel alive, and the same time it will make us suffered..

How I wish the hope will turn to miracle rather turn to devastating situation..

Ok, today is my 22nd bday and I don't think I will be doing anything for sure..

Will anyone give me present ? Hahah, I doubt it though..

I hope that someday I can learn something from the situation I'm putting myself in, even it's good, bad, or anything else.. 

I do think there will be something within it for sure.. 

If I'm giving up right now, what will happen next ?

If I'm not giving up, will things change? Or will just stay the same ?

Unpredictable sometime is exciting yet cruel..

I'm writing how I feel right now, eventhough it's how I feel everyday .. 

But today especially I think it's worse than normal...

Anyway I think I'm gonna stop here..

Nice day , and God bless you..

Morning..

How I see my stupidself..

I'm enjoying my life now , in my own way..

It won't be always happy things happened around me ..

But I do know there's some happy moment that happened around me, I am selfish because I'm doing things that I like to do, even not every people can understand me or accept it, but I still keep doing those things..

I ever think that while I'm still young why don't I keep do crazy things? 

Yap, future is important , but I do know my youth life won't ever repeat it anymore, that's why I want to do things that make me happy eventhough most of it make me feel sad and surely I don't like how it feel..

But still the choice that myself made, I won't regret it no matter what ..

There's some value within it for sure..

I don't know will her remember me, or remember the times that I'm popping around her, doing those stupid things and showing my care to her overly.. 

I'm enjoying my stupidly happy life..

Maybe I'm stupid , but it's worth to be stupid..

With the hope it will makes differences , rather than I become standbyder doing nothing..

Life is fun by how we make the differences,

Things won't change if we just sitting around doing nothing... 

-Darwin-

One Sided Love...

One Sided Love

I may not be the person who had known you for the longest, how I wish that I can be the person that will be keep remember by you from now on J

My first time get to heard your name was when we get in the same class when attend binus orientation, I heard of your name because in the class that a guy name Paul said he like you J and said that you are pretty to our buddy coordinator, back then I dont think that I’ve any kind of courage to get to know you or even to see you directly. I have never directly see you back then , I just heard your name for few times in class, and heard that you are pretty^^,