Dilemma of a job applicant..

Hy there, I'm Darwin. I've just finished my final project hearing around 1 months more ago.

And have been an unemployment for 1 months more,

my lately activities become a normal job seeker that attending any psychotest and interview that I've been received or called by different companies daily,

but so far only 1 offer have been received, but due to many complication though hahaha, and reject the offer...

back to square one now,
already feel lazy to keep having interview for a job >.<

and also dont know what company and position I should apply to...?

Im in confused state now, should I go to bank and apply their development program that offered by a long contracts, keep searching for internal audit position, find a finance or accounting position at companies, being an external auditor, or treasury or chasing my dream to be a consultant that I've no clue where I should start at all?

Hahaha, headache ... already attend 8 company psychotest and interview so far, so I've got 12,5% feed back then...

Now become worried, if I will be able get a job? a job that I want or Im dreamed of? Is it even possible?

Nobody seems know it, since I'm not clever nor outstanding, I dont know how to be patience and submissive, I also like to deny people and also stubborn.. 

Oh God, so many flaws on me that me look more like a human being, but how I overcome all of this?

hahaha, hard hard real hard sia..

Also that I demand a standard salary? or maybe a little above standard salary ...

Will it be one of the reason there's nobody call me? hahaha

Dont know, I should really just live my life and keep trying, since I still got my own saving that can keep me living for few months ahead, so it will be fine for the moment I supposed..

Hope that before my graduation ceremony that in November, I can get a well paid job and also that I like,,,

Hhahaha just keep hoping, cause hope is what keep us alive isn't it?

Thanks for your time reading these nonsense of mine, 

Sincerely Darwin.